well, i now am no longer single... yet again. i went camping this weekend. it was awesome, dave, me, bryan, jonathan, danny, julia, and sarah beth (my now girlfriend) all went. we went to graveyard fields, up in the blueridge mountains, we conqured the mountain. made our own trail, danny and i climbed many a rock face, i almost climbed a really awesome hard cliff... but i didn't have enuf strength to pull myself up with one arm... so i failed. i asked sarah beth out while the sun was setting, next to a water fall, on a path covered in beautiful green leaves. it was great. we took a nap on the top of the mountain, i found a staff, it was cool, i could controle the weather with it. we made stue, and broke out into random disney songs. at night it was really cold and windy, and the smoke was deadly. i was the pack mule, if julia didn't loose her camera then i can post some pictures of that experience. oh... and i also burned my pe-coat, it fell in the fire, and though there was no fire going at the time, somehow still burned, and is no longer usable. (note: all of these events are completely out of order) tucker was lost, i found a note saying where he was, i was a hero. we told stories around the fire. the guys tent constintly felt like it was going to collaps on us. it was really really windy. bryan, jonathan, and julia jumped into the freezing water under the lower falls. they were cold. we ate lunch at the mellow mushroom in asheville on the way back. all in all it was a good weekend, when i got home i had a sitation for running a red light a week ago. and i rememberd that i was supose to go into work sunday when i got back... and didn't, so i didn't do my job, so i might get fired... and that would suck. there... that was my weekend.

im so freaken tired. when will i learn, if i hang out with the alesana crew... im not going to go to sleep till 5:30am never... it's just the way things are. but see, the problem is i wake up at 9am every morning... no matter when i go to sleep... so, that all sucks. i got a hot date tonight, so that's cool. i had an interesting theological conversation with danial (alesana) last night, but it was interupted by niema wanting to watch friends. suposedly tommy's trying to replace donnie (the tragic hero graphic designer) but there are already too many other people that have jumped in to take his place, so i doubt i have a chance. im gonna try though, but not having any web experience doesn't really help much. im just gonna use my photo expertese as my big push, mabye i'll just do that. gosh im soo tired. i have work in 15 min. then im going to a movie with sarah beth, denis' girlfriends roomate. then im not sure what, probably just gonna go crash at the nelsons, i can't handle another 5am night. how am i emotionally? who knows... i think i've slipped back into complacency... i just don't care enuf about anything to really feel sad, or happy or anything... just live life. May God give me strength to stand next to Him. im sooo tired. oh, and im sick. but im getting things done none the less... im gonna be sending out the alesana cd's ither today or tomarrow, to the radio stations, to get them air play. im not even sure if i want a girlfriend. like i said, im not sure what i want, i don't want to be a whore, maybe i just want a cuddle buddy. i think that would be nice, someone to hold, with no strings attatched... thinking of holding people makes me miss melinda. no ones ever held me like she did. and im not too sure if anyone ever will... im not really sad about the whole any more, at all. i don't even think i have any feelings about it. happy or sad. just kinda... "ok" but every once in a while, i'll miss the way she did things. and her face. and lips. but not to the extent as to be emotionally painful... it just kinda crosses my mind. kinda like, "dang it, i miss that" so, if anybody reading this (all like 5 of you) want a cuddle buddy. just let me know. (cameron you don't count)
~me

ps. i realize that this entry is extreamly skatter brained.. please forgive me... im working on 4 hrs of sleep here.